I've been having to handle long distance relationship before, and now I have to do it again. It's been three months since I last saw my boyfriend. During our time apart we text, we FaceTime, we talk as much as we can. But we have a 7-hour time difference, which makes things a lot harder. Also when both of us have to go to school and work, we can't find that much time to be together unfortunately. We've never fought if the little arguments don't count.
It's so damn hard for both of us. I think about him all the time. I miss him all the time. And I don't feel whole without him. I'm in love with him. And now there are 4257 miles between us. No one can understand what's it like except for those who are in the same kind of situation.
I will be seeing him this Christmas. I'm going to go there for three weeks. I'm afraid I won't get as much time with him as both of us wish, but a little is still better than nothing. He's coming to visit me next summer and then there will be no hurdles on our way. We can spend all of that time together and I'm more than happy about that.
I'm afraid of the future. He will graduate and leave for college next year. I will graduate a year later and I do not know what I'm going to do then. I don't want to be stuck in my home country because of school for any more years. But then again, I've seriously started considering about applying for university majoring in psychology. There's a very small chance that I would get in in my country, but as much as I wish I could go study to his country, I would never be able to afford it. So we don't know about our future. But one thing I know for sure. I love him and I want to spend the rest of my life with him. And I do not wanna be in a long distance relationship forever. It's killing me.
I made this blog to share my feelings about this hard topic. I will be posting every now and then. It's hard to tell now. You're welcome to leave comments or send me e-mail (usafinldr@gmail.com) if you would like to ask me something or simply share your own thoughts.
